Or when one chapter ends, another begins unless it’s the end of the book.
At the end of a show or project that I spent a ridiculous amount of time on, there’s the post-show blues and all that jazz. Here’s the thing with me. I do feel that on some projects but other times I feel that the end means…a new beginning. A transition. I have shared with a few people that this year has been a transition for me. The frustrating thing I don’t know where the transition is leading me. I am literally going with the flow.
Godspell closed on Sunday and though I am very sad (I was involved in it for 2 years), I am ready to get my three projects up and going. If anything, I can use everything I have learned on Godspell with these projects. So I also feel a new type of energy. It’s all very confusing yet so clear. It’s a paradox.
It’s not only with my theater but other aspects of my life. I can feel it but I can’t pinpoint it. And maybe I don’t need to right now.
In three days we open with Imaginary. In three weeks we open with Twelfth Night. In three months, the Estrogenius Festival goes into rehearsal and will open at The Barrow Group. I try to do balance family, work, and theater with as much grace as possible.
Here’s my note from the Universe today (www.tut.com)
“For all things and non-things that you may ever want, Malini, understand that sometimes the fastest way to get them is to forget them, and to focus instead on just being the most amazing human being you can be. At which point all of your heart’s desires, spoken or unspoken, will be drawn to you more powerfully than a magnet is drawn to steel.
Have an amazing day,
You know what? I am an amazing human being. I just have to remember that!